Cleansed !

Seeking the best in everyone has always been my tagline, and even as a child I found pleasure in irritating my mom by taking the defense of those whom she criticized, and later I continued the same fun with my mom in law.

But recently I turned to myself and asked if I really seek the best in all.. do I really forget and forgive and let go of grudges..

The only grudge I ever held was for my Achan, for exaggerated and unreasonable reasons which I had built up in my mind, and blocked myself to out throw those. I admit now, that I am ashamed of myself for having kept my Achan away from my love zone. I am ashamed to have seen only his faults and for conveniently having veiled his merits and love for me. I declared to myself crushing my inhibitions that I love him more than any man I have known.

 I want to hug him and whisper in his ears that ‘I have always loved you’. I have told myself 'I have forgiven you and forgiven myself for all the lapses'.

Today he is celebrating his 70^th birthday and as a tribute to my father, I am editing one of my first posts in this blog titled “A Grudge”.

Post Script: I was never into writing and I hardly know the skills of good writing. I started this blog on the inspiration of my twin friend, who felt I could and should pen my thoughts. But thereafter I found that, writing liberates my mind, takes away my grudges too.