The past two weeks had been an abstention zone for me. I made an honest try to get rid of all that were unsuited for a woman of my disposition. Initially it was with rigidity that the rebel in me behaved as I underwent the catharsis. Then it turned to be a way of life, fully involved and sort of liking it all.. the clean clean me! The third stage is just opening up, I feel stressed and worn out for the first time in my life. I feel lost. This cannot go on. I cannot live without warming up the wilderness in me, I want the thrill, the happenings, the fun, the laughter, the thoughts, all mine and mine alone. I need to get back the time I spent with me, doing what I want to and pulling down the shutters all around me. I realize, I need to reach back to my dreams, my fantasies.. to sail through realities, stress free.
I am back, destined to stay happy..
And for all my aberrations, I justify: It is for my happiness, if I am'nt happy, how would I spread joy in my family . So it is all for family's sake. It does sound good and perfect. That 's it.
I am back, destined to stay happy..
And for all my aberrations, I justify: It is for my happiness, if I am'nt happy, how would I spread joy in my family . So it is all for family's sake. It does sound good and perfect. That 's it.
if I am'nt happy, how would I spread joy in my family..good thought pygma..hugssssssssssssssssss
ReplyDeletegud one....u r the best when u remain urself----and yeah nothing more important than one's own happiness---the fundamental truth----loved the justification twinnnnnn---spread the joy--GOD BLESS---hugssssss
ReplyDeleteകിരീടവും ചെങ്കോലും അടിയറവു വെച്ച്, ഒരു കീഴടങ്ങലിന്റെ സ്വഭാവം ഉണ്ടോ..പിഗ്മാ.. ?
ReplyDeleteവിഷയത്തിനോട് വിയോജിപ്പ്..! എഴുത്തിനു ഭാവുകങ്ങള്...!
Welcome back!! ;)
ReplyDeleteStay thrilled, feel like 'home'!!!
That's it Pygma....your post remind me of a poem by Philip Larkin called "Wants"....
ReplyDelete"Beyond all this, the wish to be alone
However the sky grows dark with invitation cards
However we follow the printed directions of sex
However the family is photographed under the flagstaff
Beyond all this, the wish to be alone.
Beneath it all, desire of oblivion runs:
Despite the artful tensions of the calendar,
The life insurance, the tabled fertility rites
The costly aversion of the eyes from death---
Beneath it all, desire of oblivion runs."
Acknowledge your "wants" Pygma....and there blooms your wild wild beauty:)
I know what you mean. I'm not the best as a family member if I am deprived of my "me" time.
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'Happiness is just being myself' - it's true too.There are few,who can get that sort of happiness. And i believe you are one among those lucky people!! That's your mark... stick to it..
ReplyDeleteAs usual it was with a real feel.. gud job!! keep smiling..
Nice......!!
ReplyDeleteAw, that's a good thought. :-)
ReplyDeletethoughtful...well you should be the way you are..no change is needed :)
ReplyDeleteDo whatever gives you happiness, life would follow!
ReplyDeleteAll the best n love like always :-)
Am waiting:)
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